I know that I am not at the highest level I am destined to be at, so when I think about who I am at that higher level and connect with her/me, my higher self commands certain things of me now. I have decided to share these commandments with you and maybe you will realize that your higher self commands certain things of you as well. So, she who has an ear, let her hear.Continue Reading
So it’s been a few days since I got the letter stating that my divorce was final. Some trusted that I was okay; others, I believe, waited for “the other shoe to drop.” I said then, that I was okay, and I’m still saying now that I’M OKAY. What most people don’t know, or understand, is that while there is a grieving process to all loss, whether it is the death of a loved one, loss of a job or home, or the end of a marriage, grieving can occur at any time.
For me, personally, my grieving time came during my marriage. I know many people don’t start their grieving until the end of their marriage, or when the ink is fresh on the divorce papers, but that wasn’t the case for me. I started grieving years before the official end of my marriage. In spite of my hopes, dreams, and prayers that my marriage would be saved, I saw signs of THE END throughout my marriage–and the second separation was a definite sign, even if I wanted to ignore all the others. So I went through the grieving process, and went through most of the stages…a few times. And this is why I refer to my grieving as GOOD grief, because while I was praying for one thing, the Lord helped me to clearly see what I needed to see and understand, which allowed me the opportunity to start grieving early. The Lord, while He didn’t save my marriage, saved me from having to go “cold turkey” and I am grateful for that.
While I was going through my GOOD grief, I went through most of the 5 stages of grief: denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance.
So, it’s done. I got my letter in the mail today; my divorce is final. I’ve announced that to my children, my mother, and one of my besties, but that’s it. And they all had pretty much the same question, “ARE YOU OKAY?” and that was a legitimate question. Was I okay? All things considered, I’d have to say, yes, I’m okay. But that’s the short version. The long version is this:Continue Reading
Recently, someone—once again—did something that was just WRONG. And I got to that point, like many of us do, where I was like, “Oh. That’s oooookay. I got something for that,” then mentally added them to my “ish list.” THIS time, however, after decades of having an ish list, I right away thought, “Now THAT’S negative.” I considered how long my ish list had grown through the years and thought, “Now this is ridiculous.” I was immediately reminded of the scripture that said love doesn’t keep score of the wrongs of others (see 1 Corinthians 13:3-7 [MSG]) and knew I had to make a mental change. A shift in my thinking was beginning to happen.Continue Reading