I was lying in bed this morning, going through Bible Plans on my phone, and stumbled upon the Serenity Plan. I’ve always liked that word…serenity. So my interest was piqued and I started reading ahead and got to day 4. Day 4 encourages self-reflection and self-inventory. It encourages you to be painfully honest with yourself about yourself; it encourages you to admit what has hurt you deeply and also to admit what you did to hurt others so that you can eventually get to a place of healing and restoration. [Read more…]
It took forever for me to have an inkling as to what my purpose was. I had figured out that I liked being a sounding board, and helping women figure their relationship stuff out, but that was about it. At one crucial point in my life I had strongly considered getting a degree in counseling, but I allowed myself to be talked out of it by one simple phrase: “You won’t make any money in counseling.”
And so there it was.
I had another one of my dreams last night. In my dream I was an apprentice for this really rich and nice looking guy. He was famous for many things, but especially for his “grind.” Everything he did seemed to be related to work and he was very successful. It seemed like he never slept. So as his apprentice, I did whatever he said—any hour of the day or night…and then I finally saw him sleep. When he woke up, he asked me, “Why isn’t this done?” Keep in mind, I worked the entire time he slept, doing exactly what he asked, to the best of my ability. I had not had any sleep. I had not had a break. And he had the nerve to ask why I wasn’t done?
I went slap off.
On New Year’s Eve, I was grateful I had the chance to reflect on my year. There were a lot of ups and downs, but sadly, there were many things I didn’t accomplish. I wanted to go here and there and do this and that. I did very little. I wondered why.
At first I wanted to give myself an “out” and say it was because I was working all the time. True; I WAS working all the time, but I could have taken time off. Then I wanted to say it was because I didn’t have the money. But then I thought about some of my money decisions and realized, that, no, I couldn’t blame it on lack of money.
I was coming up with alibis left and right, and none of them were sticking.
During one of the many times I ponder things, I wondered why—how—so many people become stuck in their lives,
never seeming to move forward, never seeming to get ahead…me included. Then I took a closer look at myself—something I try to do often. And here is what I have come up with. It basically boils down to these three things:
- Too many of us are stuck because we are too scared to leave our comfort zone. We are too scared to try something new: a new job, friend, man, car, house, city, profession, food, doctor, fitness routine, business…whatever. So we operate within a self-imposed bubble, hoping, wishing, and praying that our relief, miracle, or success will come to us, within the safety and ease of our tight bubble. I had to picture it like this: I’m surrounded by what’s familiar, what’s comfortable—physically, mentally, [Read more…]